— Vaibhav Shah
— Vaibhav Shah
Me (while rummaging through the pantry, holding a glass of iced tea): Oh my god! I've been eating A LOT.
Willie (while preparing for Sunday mass): Hahahahahahahaha
Me: ..........................
Willie: Ngayon mo lang na-notice?
Me: Anong na-notice?
Willie: Na kain ka ng kain.
Me: Hahahahaha
Willie: Last week pa yan eh.
Me: SORRY AH. hahaha
TAE. hahaha. Stress. STRESS.
Probably one of the most ambitious things I wanna do here on earth would be to inspire others, especially the people I've met in the course of my 19 plus ++++ years of living. I don't know how, I don't know why I wanna do it. All I know is it's gonna be a real hard one for me or for anyone who's gonna do it.
Looking at the mirror to evaluate myself with who I am, with what I've done and accomplished... I could hardly think of anything that could make me qualify as one of those people who surely made a mark in everyone's lives. Honestly, thinking about this makes me feel bad--that I haven't really taken chances and challenged risks. I'm just the girl who passed all her subjects in school, an obedient daughter, and a friend. That's it. Nothing more and nothing less. That's me.
But I guess the fact that I pass everything in school, a daughter that was given so much trust by her parents, and to be called as a friend means something. And is something.
Just a thought.
It's finally here. And this time, it's for real. Although it's not yet sinking in, but yes. My family's finally joining my other relatives in the States. As for me, my dad's still in negotiation with me if I'd come with them and continue my studies there. My mom wants me to finish my 6-year course here and then leave the Philippines to continue my studies there because that was actually the reason why we're leaving the country in the first place. They said they'll be leaving this summer with me. I'll be staying there with them for two weeks and then go back to the Philippines by myself. Yes, by myself. @_@ This, is probably the most independent thing I will ever do, putting aside the living alone with old brother and old sister thing. lol
Oh well. As of now, I'm still undecided.
What I wrote above somehow makes sense. For some it's taking a big leap. For some, it's like displacing yourself out of your comfort zone. To speak for myself, it's somehow taking a risk-- on whether that new look would either compliment your features or not.
I admit. Sometimes, it's hard to take risks because we don't really know what's gonna happen next. We're really not assured of what's gonna be in store for you after you took the chance. So, yes. It's easier to play safe all the time.. and letting the 50% chance of getting what you want pass in front of you. Sounds sad.. and boring. Someone told me before that life is about taking chances, that in life you always don't get what you want... but maybe you'll regret it more if you don't take the risk and just let the sure 50% percent to pass, without having the chance to grab it because it's too late.
You know. I also have no idea why I'm here. I'm also clueless... like you. But I figured that sometimes, there are instances in life that you're not really sure of what you want... all you gotta do is to open your doors, windows, and even your roof to whatever you have in front of you... And maybe you'll realize that whatever you're doing right at this very moment, is what you wanted ever since. You just don't know how to appreciate every little misfortune it brings.
You know what just made my day today? The fact that I found out that Dr. SiaSu had mistakenly miscalculated my first Ecology exam, 54 + 20 is not 64, my dear sir. :>
Me: *Sleeping
Dad: Ice cream. Ice cream. Ice cream?
Me: *Half-conscious* Huh?
*Silence
Haaaay. haha. As much as I want to get pissed off because he disturbed my sleep... I didn't. Haha! My dad is weird... That's why I love him!
Tomorrow's Father's day!
Happy Father's day, my big ball of luvin'! :)
PS: Kung hindi pa father's day.. HAHAHA. Advanced Happy Father's day. lol.
Sorry. I was watching something on the television a while ago. And yeah.. it was about Japan... and Japanese food. By now you should've known what my favorite food is. hehe. I'm a sucker for Japanese food, especially sushi. It's one thing I'll keep on craving for even if I eat it everyday. <3.
Share ko lang. Ang bango pala ng Lysol na Crisp Berry scent. Reminds me of that strawberry flavored cough syrup. hahaha.
I missed my room so much that it only took me a glance to realize how much it has been neglected. A year ago, I moved to the dorm and actually built my life there. But now I'm trying to put back a bit of my life in the orange room.. by cleaning it! :)
Yesterday afternoon, my mom went inside my room and automatically laid down on the bed while I was trying to preoccupy myself in front of the computer so I won't keep on ranting how bored I am. haha.
Whenever I'm in front of the computer, I always open my itunes to play some of the songs I recently downloaded... Yesterday was one of those days where I wanted to listen to what my mom used to listen when she was in her earlier years. So yeah.. I downloaded "If I fell", a song from the Beatles. I instantly played it and my mom sang along. She knew the lyrics well. I wasn't contented, so I tried to play the cover of the song from the movie Across the Universe. My mom told me that she liked their version. Well.. turned out the song was her favorite from the Beatles. Heh, I remember how she bragged about her knowing the lyrics well. After the Beatles, I played the Carpenters. My mom introduced me to them... They're also my mom's favorite. The song "Close to you" is close to my heart. When I was a kid, I remember I kept on playing it on the CD player over and over again. My mom didn't mind me doing it... I know she loved it too. I told my mom how I got 5 bonus points from my Botanny Long Exam just by singing Close to You in front of the class who was busy answering the questions from the exam. Yesterday, we sang that song again with Karen Carpenter... And God knows how much I enjoyed everything about it. :) "We've only just begun" is one of those songs that made my mom nostalgic about the past... She told me yesterday how well she played the organ--and that the song I was currently playing, she kept on playing it over the organ. That left me thinking how she spent her yesteryears with pure bliss.
And then, the BeeGees! She loves them, so I downloaded her favorite, "How Deep is Your Love". We sang with them again. I didn't mind repeating the song, because I knew how it made my mom all excited. The last song I downloaded, thanks to Limewire, was the from Dionne Warwick.. "What the World Needs Now is Love". One of my favorites.. one of my feel good music from the soundtrack of "My Bestfriend's Wedding". Yes, my mom sang along with me while exchanging funny stories about us.
Hi mom, tomorrow I will be one year older and I will forever be your baby girl until I become very very old! lav yow!
HAHAHAHHAHAHAHA.
Summer actually isn't that bad. My summer class isn't that hectic as I imagined it to be.. So yeah. I got a lot of free time, to actually do whatever I want on a "school night". The good part is.. only a couple more of Mondays and we're done!
I'm still overwhelmed by the fact that another term came along and just like a typhoon, scared the hell out of me. Barely survived though, but still thankful.
College has been a roller coaster ride. Let's take it in this perspective, the fact that it's fun.. thrilling.. and sometimes scary. Entering Human Biology is actually a humbling experience for me. Graduating from High School, I honestly had my head held up high, with a little ego inside my system that I passed a course which others consider as one of the hardest. The truth is, I had to pinch myself if I was dreaming. Because it seemed to be something that's surreal for me. Only the latter part had it sinked in, and I somehow forgot to plant my feet on the ground.
First term.. Second term.. and third term have already passed. I'll be spending a school year as a college student come May 2009. If there is one thing that I've realized, it would be that everyone is vulnerable, especially when one is emotionally, mentally, physically, and spiritually tired. But I guess it's okay to cry, it's okay to be depressed, it's okay to feel that one is not good enough every once in a while because it makes you try to strive harder and aim higher. It gives you the motivation to sacrifice a whole lot just to study. Hah, this was my routine. Maybe it helped.. maybe it's the reason why I still passed organic chemistry. :>
I was, in fact emotionally, physically, and mentally tired. Friends from the block had kept me sane. They are the ones who've put a lot of effort in letting keeping me whole. Anyhoooooooooooo. College indeed is a roller coaster ride, once you're done, you feel so fulfilled and proud after. :)
One of the reasons why I love my parents is that they indirectly let me know how much they miss me after not being able to go home for two weeks straight. I love how they casually do it so it won't be so cheesy, fit for a teenager like me. =))
I don't think you understood..
Good job on spelling out sarcasm.
